Let the games begin!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been waiting over a month for today. I get to start Lupron tonight!!!!! I don't know why I'm so excited...I guess I have the hurry up and wait mentality. Although I start tonight, I won't know what's going on in there for 2 weeks. My protocol is to take 20 IUs for the next 14 days, and go in for u/s and b/w on 2/25. In other words...this is just a boring period of time as the BCP phase.

And I'm SO glad that's almost over. I take 5 more BCP and I'm done. Finally.

I'm starting to get anxious. I want to be positive, but...it's not my first time at the rodeo. I know all too well that IVF #2 might not work. In fact, there is a 50% chance that it won't work. Actually, scratch that...last time Dan and I saw Dr. K she had a 57% chance of success stat that she read to me, based on all our info, and her clinic. I suppose I'm happy to be over the 50% mark. But. Ugh. This is going to be torture.

As I was saying, I want to be positive, that is my nature. But I also want to be realistic, which to me pretty much means going into this assuming it won't work. Nothing like having low expectations, huh;-) Seriously. I'd rather be prepared for the worst and get the best, that be overly optimistic and have my heart broken again. Not to mention the bank account.

Thankfully, I don't think we'll need to ask MIL for money. We'll pay for 1/2 this time, and my parents the other 1/2. If it comes to #3(GASP) it'll be time to hit her up again. If I could even go through it again.

Whoevers reading...please send me good thoughts.