Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
AND, to those who ask if I can buy/rent a Doppler...good news! Sara (who is saving my life AGAIN!) just found out she has one in her office...which is just across the park. So. No more worries. I may be seeing alot of Sara in the next few months:-)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Yesterday? I was happy as a clam making some fun, wonderful plans.
Last night? I was focusing on what I wasn't feeling (McBaby).
Today? MELT DOWN at a staff meeting in which I discussed my maternity leave plans with our group. OK, so I melted down AFTER the staff meeting, but I still melted. Actually, as soon as my "plans" had been told, I left the meeting and called Dr. S, asking to get in for a h/b check. The secretary wanted to know if something was wrong, if I was having trouble feeling the baby. "Um, yes, I can't really say that I've ever FELT my baby." (Starting to write off those thumps I felt last week). Anyhoo, she acted like I was impositioning her b/c they were "so busy today." I said, as politely as I could "look, I did IVF, I'm paranoid, Dr. S said I could come in whenever I need to be reassured. Today is one of those days."
So they fit me in and gave me the talk about "it may take a minute to find." However, Miss McBaby was very cooperative, with a h/b loud and clear right away. Yes, I cried.
I embarrassingly told Dan about the meltdown. I called him as I was driving back to work from the appt. He doesn't really get the paranoia, but I don't really expect him too.
Now, I'm exhausted. I stressed myself out and just want to go home and crawl under the covers. But I'm thrilled to know she's nice and cozy in there:-) At least one of us can relax.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
That said, since we found out about Miss McBaby I have started to get outwardly excited. I'm (more) comfortable telling people than I was. I'm more comfortable wearing clothes that accent my bump (YES I HAVE ONE!!) I'm more likely to ask questions of new moms. And as I ASK those questions I'm realizing just HOW much I know NOTHING about babies. Reproductive endocrinology? No problem. But babies? I have nothing. Less than nothing. So I'm entering a whole new arena of things to research, which, if you know me well, you know that I love. (This might also be mistaken for a way to procrastinate at work!)
There are lots of exciting things on the horizon, which I am happy to report I am ALL about.
2) hand in hand with a shower is the registry. I will preface that by saying that I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of a registry. To me, it is essentially telling people what they should buy me and that's just not me. But shower implies gifts so registering has been on my mind. And with that goes the research I talked about above. So many things, so many reviews, so many decisions.
3) my FAVORITE current exciting thing is planning the nursery. There was a time several years ago when I had ideas in my head. I'm sure my thoughts have changed alot since then. I will be making most of the "bedding set." I am not the theme type person and I can't find much I like in the way of prepackaged bedding sets. So I found the BEST, most FABULOUS fabric this weekend and I bought yards of it!!! I'll make the bedskirt, curtains, a few pillows and maybe a few other decorative things in the room. I can't wait!!! Now that fabric is chosen, next step is wall color. And of course the crib:-) I still need to decide on that. It's really down to 1 big decision, white, cherry or espresso finish. Maybe that will be on my to-do list this weekend!
So that's my week. Physically, I'm ok except for the never-ending reflux. It seems to have gotten worse over the past week or so. I won't go into details but I wouldn't wish it on anyone:-/
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Our 20 week u/s was yesterday. First things first, McBaby looked great. They took several measurements that were all fine, and checked out stomach, kidneys and bladder. All good.
The news everyone has been waiting for is that it is MISS McBaby:-) We are ecstatic!!!!!!
Sara came with us (since she works right down the block) and took a picture of us as the tech was showing us the goods. Yes, I was clapping:-)
She (wow, SHE!!) was once again a stubborn little thing, so we were there for quite awhile while they were getting all the measurements/pictures they needed. I declined the amnio. Even if our NT scan would have come back high-risk I wouldn't have done the amnio, so my turning it down was a no-brainer. She looked so squished in there, I have no idea how she will be comfy at the end! We also got to see her making little sucking motions with her lips. CUTE!!!!!
At this point, she is still nameless, although we have a definate front runner for first name. Arguing a bit about middle name. We'll see who wins;-)
THE CUTEST LITTLE FEET EVER!!!!!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Pre-pregnancy, I never had to wear deodorant. I just did b/c, well, that's what you do. NOW, I feel like I slather it on in the morning and by lunchtime, I already smell. It's gross.
Or, it could be b/c my sense of smell is heightened and I just smell myself more easily?? I doubt it, I really think I stink.
19 week dr appt tomorrow AM!!!
Friday, July 3, 2009
Your fetus has become amazingly mobile (at least compared to you), passing the hours yawning, hiccuping, rolling, twisting, kicking, punching, sucking and swallowing. And, baby's finally big enough that you'll be able to feel those movements soon.
I also learned that the inner ear should be just about formed by now, which means baby can hear things going on out in the world, as well as my heartbeat:-)
Good news from the doctor...no UTI for me. I guess it is just "normal" frequent urination, but it is so annoying. And...a few days ago, minding my own business, walking Sierra...I sneezed...and peed at the same time:-( Took my a second to realize what happened, but yep. It happened. Fun times.
Last night brought an incredible nightmare, and not the Wizard of Oz kind like I was fearing. This was worse. I dreamt that 1) I wasn't pregnant, 2) had never been pregnant, and 3) was delivered the news of a negative beta from an IVF cycle. It was horrid. Worse than I can ever begin to explain to someone who has never dealt with this. In the dream, I was at the receptionist of RE office and she gave me the news. I broke down, inconsolable. I FELT those feelings in my dream. I felt the fear and the anger and the frustration and the desperation. It was so real that I woke up not realizing that I actually was/am pregnant. It was several minutes of me going through the old drill in my head...ok, what next, where's the money coming from, how am I going to keep going at this, etc. Then I finally realized I was pregnant. It's been haunting me all day. I never, EVER want to be in that position again.