McBaby is a lime!

It's 10:15 pm. How am I awake, do you wonder? Simple. I've been asleep since about 6:-)

Two little milestones today. 1) McBaby graduated to lime stage, and 2) the little lime still has a heart beat! Dr. S tried to hear the h/b with a doppler. When I reminded her of my retroverted uterus, she put that down and went straight to the u/s machine. Yes, it was the crappy one, but it was just fine with me.

I saw baby, and then immediately went searching for the h/b. I must have said something like "Where's the h/b? Is there still a h/b?" She zeroed in on it for me and I was immediately a happy camper.

She also gave me a script for Zofran. I'm excited about starting that, in hopes of feeling somewhat normal. I told her about my headaches and she told me they go hand in hand with the nauseau. Oh, and she said my weight gain was in normal limits (i.e. about 3 pounds).

We go back in 4 weeks!!!

Not the best scan, but like I said it's the crappy u/s machine.

unnecessary (??) paranoia

I woke up today with a not so good feeling. There is nothing obviously wrong (i.e. no spotting), and I still feel like crap, but I'm just having a not so positive day. Thankfully OB appt is tomorrow. Maybe I am just preparing myself should 1) we get an u/s and 2) things don't look so good? I don't know, but I don't like the feeling. The rational side of me is saying everything is fine, but still.

I "came out" to some more people at work yesterday. Maybe subconsciously I feel like I'm jinxing myself??

Why can't I just be normal, with normal thoughts?

The beans have been spilled...

After much thought, I came to the conclusion to that Mother's Day was a good day to "spill the beans" to family. Some people knew already (parents, sister, etc), but others I've been holding off on "just in case." I broke down and now both grandmas know, along with some other extended family. News travels fast I guess, as I got a call from an aunt this morning.

So...it's out! Exciting and scary all at the same time.

I hope to breath a sigh of relief on Thursday (assuming we get another u/s at OB appt), and then a bigger sigh of relief at NT scan on May 21.

I also made my first maternity purchase this weekend. Note that I didn't buy something for baby, just me. I can't go there yet. I got a few camisoles and maternity tank tops that are just a bit roomier than what I'm currently wearing. They seem to fit pretty well now, so who knows how long they'll last me.

Nauseau is still kicking my butt, along with INTENSE fatigue. All I want to do is sleep, although mornings seem to be my best time of day. By 2 pm, I'm starting to go downhill. By 7 pm? Forget it.

PIO is done!!!!

Dan gave me my last bootie shot last night, finally. I never thought the day would come. 70 days of shots with this size needle...

...really wears on a girls nerves (and her husbands). Believe it or not, the needle itself isn't as bad as you think, it's the OIL that goes in that makes it rough. It's thick, and takes forever to go in.

Little prune got a present:-)

First things first, since it's Thursday.

Week 10: Prune

With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

I can't really say that I find prunes appetizing, much less like to think that that's what's going on inside right now, but whatever. I think it's more about the length of measurement, so I'm happy to see that McBaby is hopefully on its way to 2 inches!!!

The little prune got a present last night!!!! Lisa and her mom send us an adorably cute onesie that says Worth the Wait. Dan had already opened the package, so it was lying on the table when I got home. I saw that it was a onesie and started crying (yes, I did), and THEN I saw what it said and the tears were really flowing. Hormones are getting the better of me these days.

As is exhaustion. Mon night I slept 12 hours, Tues and Wed, 10 hours. It's insane. I've heard about the exhaustion, but this is just ridiculous. I start going downhill by early afternoon, and by the time I get home I am useless.

We're in the process of trying to schedule the NT scan. My OB nurse actually schedules it, and hasn't been able to get in touch with the office that does them, so I'm a bit frustrated with that.

TONIGHT IS MY LAST PIO SHOT!!!!!!!!!!

Sisterhood Award!!!

GO ME!! Jen nominated me for this blogger award. I love that other people read my blog. I hope that means that what I have gone through has helped someone else, or at least provided someone a bit of encouragement.

Here are the guidelines for this award:
1) Put the logo on your blog or post.
2) Nominate at least 10 blogs with great attitude and/or gratitude. Be sure to link to your nominees in your post.
3) Let your nominees know they have received the award by leaving them a comment on their blog.
4) Be sure to link this post to the person who nominated you for the award.

The ladies I nominate represent those that have beat/are beating IF, as well as those that haven't made it, yet. I say yet, b/c I know they will.

Kelly from Not How I Planned
Kristen from Hopeful Wishes
Krissy from Someday, Someway
Jackie from Is it My Turn Yet
Andrea from Preheated Oven
Lisa from Helping Make Sense
Mary from Meepit on Parade
Jenn from When Will Faith and Hope Pay Off
Rebekah from Infertilty and Beyond
Leah from Crazy Infertile
Andrea from Andrea in Indiana

Something that's been weighing on my mind ALOT are those women who are still trying to "get to the other side." I'm sad for them and their situation, but mostly I feel guilt b/c I made it (so far) and they haven't. Kind of like survivor's guilt I guess. We've known each other for quite a while, have known the ins and outs of each others particular situation. Why was I the one to make it this time? I don't get it, and am getting rather teary just thinking about it. Of course I am beyond grateful that I did, but it's still painful to know that my friends are still struggling. I hate it. It's just not fair. I am rooting for each of them more than they know.

First OB appt...

It went well! The nurse had documented my Tues spotting episode, so Dr. S did an u/s. I totally wasn't expecting that, and it was nothing like the high tech machine they have at the RE office, but we got to see a fuzzy McBaby and its little beating heart:-) I actually think that Dr. K sent her a note about me (she said she was going to), and probably mentioned that I could be a bit high maintainance. Instead of scheduling my next appt for 4 weeks, I go again in 13 days. YAHOO!!!! Very excited about that. I can handle these little chunks of time.

Dr. S answered alot of our questions. She really pushed excercising NOW (walking, yoga, etc), and watching the carbs. I told her carbs are about all I can stomach and she said that's fine for now, but I need to gradually cut back on them. In her ideal world I will gain no more than 30 pounds. That seems reasonable, based on all the IF weight I packed on.

She also discussed the NT scan in some detail. This is the scan where among other things they can access the markers for Down's Syndrome. She's a big proponent of it. I was really 50/50 going into the appt. After talking with her though, Dan really wants it done. It has to be done between 11-14 weeks, so I need to schedule that soon. Can I admit that for selfish reasons, I'm excited about it, b/c it means we get to see McBaby again??

All in all, my first appt as a "normal" pregnant lady was ok. Seems like I still got a few bonuses...which I feel I've earned.