Did I spell that right? I'm not sure and honestly don't care right now. I went to see the nurse practitioner today b/c what I thought was a clogged milk duct/annoying mastitis is still lingering. Turns out it's an abscess. I knew something was wrong when I saw the look on her face:-/ However, part of me felt slightly validated for the pain it's been causing. I don't want to be quick to say bfing hurts, b/c I've heard some horror stories. Nice to know that it also looks painful. I guess. Anyhoo...
She brought the dr in for a 2nd opinion,wrote a script and sent me upstairs for an u/s. After the tech did the u/s (also saw the pained look on her face when she saw my issue), she brought in the radiologist who re-did the u/s. He basically said it was an abscess, and something needed to be done today. So they aspirated the spot. It took 3 syringes. fuuunnnnn times....They cancelled the script called in by Dr. S's office and called in something much stronger. I have an appt with the surgeon at 7:30 am tomorrow. No, I will not be going to sleep tonight. Apparently the surgeon will tell me if it needs more than aspiration, which would obviously mean surgery. YAY. All of this paled in comparison to the radiologist telling me that I might have to quick breastfeeding, at least from that side. I fought off the tears, at least until he left. Stopping bfing would also mean stopping pumping from that side, to reduce the chances of the "pocket" filling up again. TMI, but this is the side that is the "mega" producer. I get minimal from the other side. So to stop producing on that side basically means that bfing/pumping would be over.
Yes, I've talked about stopping breastfeeding, and also thought briefly about starting formula...but it needs to be on my own terms. To be told I have to stop is not something I wanted to here. I'm still trying to process that discussion and hope to get better news tomorrow.
Oh, and Sophie and I rocked today. I took her with me b/c I wasn't prepared to be shipped around to different offices and really thought my appt would be in and out. Once they sent me for an u/s, I had to end up nursing her in the changing room (b/c I didn't expect to need to bring a bottle). Also had to change her on the dressing room floor. But we survived, and it's nice to know I'm capable:)